I am Jack

Haven't done a post in the blog in quite a while. Dunno if it was because I didn't feel like writing or just because I was too busy. Maybe it was both.

Either way, I've been watching some great movies and there were two just marked me for life: American Psycho and Fight Club. Geezus fucking Christ, those movies are so goddamn amazing! American Psycho: be like everybody else and you might get yourself and others confused about your identity. Fight Club: Don't follow the standard.

Some quotes I found awesome from both movies:
"There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an entity, something illusory" - American Psycho

"Fuck off with your sofa units and strine green stripe patterns, I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say let... lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may." - Fight Club

I think these movies even though they were not made in the 00's, they still apply to our society. We try to be something we are not, try to have things we cannot even afford just because it's fashionable or even because that guy has it. I admit it, I wanted to have a mac. And yes, I want to have a certain brand of markers or paper, in order to work better and to do what I love. Maybe it's because that artist use it and it has a beautiful effect. But hey, I'm part of this society, whether I like it or not. If I stop using those markers, what will happen to me? Absolutely nothing. But at least I don't fool myself by saying I'm something else.

Either way, I advise everybody to watch these two movies.

On another note, I've been a little busy with college, hanging out with boyfriend every now and then <3 Fffff, it's seems like I've been with him more than 3 months xD

And and and and, I love you all <3
Bye bye c:

CUPCAKES BTW

I'm not dead... yet

Okay, how do I start this shit again?

Oh, from the beginning of course -shot-
Either way, I'm back from my vacations. A month without internet it really makes you feel... free? Yeah, quite free. It sounds boring when with family but when with friends... gosh, bye internet, hello play time with friends. Seriously, I haven't played hide and seek since I was.... 10? Sad but true and I have forgotten how fun it is!

Either way, I spent 10 days of pure fun, the last day was terribly, because I had to leave and then I had to suffer for the next 10 days until I got home again :c

Funny thing, I have nothing to say! asbhgddngfggbdfgdhmgbv
See? Jibberish! No words to describe this summer~ It was fantastic!

College starts on 14th of this month, meh >.< I miss my college buddies and their sillyness but not college itself xD

I guess I have nothing to say. I will leave you guys with this song that has been on my head for quite a while!

Game freak: Silent Hill 2 (SPOILER ALERT)

Okay, I've got to talk about this.
Lately, I've been very onto horror video games and I started to play Silent Hill. It took me several deeps of breath before asking one of my friends to borrow me so I could play. Since I've already seen Silent Hill 3 and Silent Hill 4 walkthroughs and since the first one was kinda old and I already knew the story, I decided to start with Silent Hill 2.

Best.Fucking.Story.Ever.

James is a moron, I got to admit. A total moron. He goes to Silent Hill because he receives a letter from his DEAD wife, Mary. Who the fuck goes to a town with a bad reputation because he has received a letter from a deceased person? Didn't he think it could be some kind of joke? Even if it was similar to Mary's handwritting, James is still a moron. Then, when Laura kicks the key away from him, he can't reach it with his hand BUT he could reach it with his wooden stick that he uses to beat monster ._. Yeah, a wooden stick. I used it very often during the game so I wouldn't waste ammo.

Either way, I love the letter she sends to him:
"In my restless dreams, I see that town, Silent Hil. You promised you'd take me there again, but you never did. Well, I'm alone there now, in our Special Place"

This sentence gives me the chills. It always makes me wonder about what James has promised and how he lied to her... He would never take her again to Silent Hill. He was so... tired.

The special place is quite a place to find, since James first mistakes it for another place u.u moron. On his way to Silent Hill, he finds a disturbed woman, Angela. You will find her quite a few times but the first time I saw her and the way she avoided close contact with people made me clear that she had been abused. In what way, I was not entirely sure still. When I arrive to Silent Hill, I encounter another person: Maria. Which is by coincidence (or not) exactly a clone of Mary, James' dead wife.

Then, your quest to get to the real special place begins. The special place Mary was talking was the Hotel they stood, a few years ago, when Mary was still healthy. To get there, you pass through several places, discovering little by little why is James there. In the apartments, you find Pyramid Head and I've got to say, sexy and scary all in one is not that easy. I found him raping manequins on one of the rooms, which was quite disturbing, since he rapes them with his helmet... Gosh, wicked but I falled in love with that creepy character.

Either way, I lost Maria (not Mary) when you escape Pyramid Head on the hospital. She dies. Like -stabstab- she's dead. (Thank god, I hated that bitch actually).

But it won't the last time she dies... She will die another two times, one on the Toluca Prison and another on the Hotel as one of the bosses. Pyramid Head is always the one that kills her.
And this made me think, and I thought right: James was being punished. For what, I still didn't know but something happened to Mary and she died because of James. Pyramid Head was his punisher and Maria, Mary's clone, existed only for one purpose: to tempt James and to die over and over again as a sign of punishment.

I was stunned by the meanings of these two characters, the creators did a wonderful job.

There is also this girl, Laura, and I've always wondered about what was she doing there besides being a messenger from Mary to James. Did she have any sins that needed to be clean? She was a further inocent child.

At the end of the game (well, you guess as you go but -shrugs-), I found out that James killed Mary. Any ending you get, you have killed Mary because you were tired of taking care of her. Because she was sick and you were stuck with her. Everything fits.

James is being punished by Pyramid Head and Maria for killing Mary because of selfish matters. But James is aware of that fact and has he arrives to Silent Hill, Pyramid Head and Maria exist ONLY because of James as well. Perfect, I must say. You also fight a boss which is Maria itself in a very monstrous way.

The ending I got was the one that I leave the town safe and sound with Laura.


All this thing got me wonder about the symbolism of the monsters as well. Pyramid Head is also meaning of James sexual reprivation, that's why you find him raping manequins. Angela was abbused by her father and therefore she killed him, but she still finds herself guilty and ends up dying in Silent Hill. Eddie is another character that I didn't give much attention. Fatso. -shot by Eddie-

Most of the monster are about James sexual desires... Geez, DUDE GET LAID WITH A HOOKER, LIKE MARIA. -rolls eyes-

Well, I better STOP writing. But I was so caught into Silent Hill, that I think one day I might find the town and die there ._. Shit.

I will do more posts about Silent Hill and other stuff. But for now, it's all.


-everybody shouts Hallellujah-

Le stuff

Well, I haven't written here in a while, have I? That's because I'm ON FUCKING HOLIDAYS BITCHEEEEESSS!

That's right, I'm on my beloved and deserved holidays after working hard ;_; Geezus, I thought it will never be over. But still I GET EMAILS FROM MY DESIGN TEACHER. GAWD. STFU MAN.

Either way, I've been enjoying myself since I'm on holidays. I'm going to make a small post here about what I've been doing but a second and larger one will appear about another thing which I would like to dedicate a unique post XD

I've been hanging out with my friends~
Making videos with them~
Playing video games~
Drawing and coloring~
Chatting~
Roleplaying~
Bugging people xD
Photoshooting~
AND I WENT TO AN ANIME EVENT FINALLY <3 Anipop matsuri! Geez, I haven't gone to an event in quite a few months! I cosplayed as the white rabbit from Alice in Wonderland, but I did an original version (yeah, because I'm that poor xD)

Either way, it was amazing, I got a leek necklace (from Miku) that one of my besties took and bought a ring that I really like :3

OH, almost forgot! I'm 19 now (yeah old xD) and I got this amazing gift from my friends - A Sebastian (Kuroshitsuji) plushie ;w; I really love it, so thank you guys <3


HASTA

I like ponies. Problem?

Xirofl

O xilol é largamente usado como solvente para tintas, vernizes, indústria de tinturas e corantes, preparados farmacêuticos, indústria de produção de plásticos, indústria do petróleo e como solventes em análises laboratoriais. Trata-se de um composto orgânico volátil que pode provocar tosse, dores de cabeça, dificuldades respiratórias, perda de memória em curto prazo, depressão no sistema nervoso central, irritação ocular e dermatites (MORAES et al., 2005; LANGMAN, 1994).

Translation:

Xilol is largely used as a solvent for paints, polisher, industry of paints and corants, pharmacy, industry of plastics, industry of oil and solvent for lab analysis. It's an volatitle organic compound that can cause cough, headaches, breathing difficulties, short term memory loss, depression on the central nervous system, eye irritation and dermatitis.

Great.

I've been using this all day! : D

I'm so going to a mental hospital right now.

LALALALALALALA

It's a quarter to 4

I'm a little fried

And I need you now

Said I wouldn't go

But I lose all control and I need you now

This song is dedicated to my beloved vacations and bed. I MISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH ;__;

I'm almost done with my work! And I haven't drunk any energy drink nor coffee (I hate coffee e_e)

-gets shot-

Voice from outside: You should be working!

Oh yeah... right. Bye guys!